Life at The Moment Feels Hard & Unfulfilling

You arrive home from the corporate battlefield and pull your car into the garage, exhausted; you sink into your seat, dreading to walk in and engage with your family; you know they will come running to greet you. You are emotionally drained and battle-weary from fighting to compete with this dog-eat-dog environment. You have no “plan B,” and you don’t know if you have the mental acuity to continue this daily incursion into the office, so guilt weighs you down, and failure lurks in the back of your mind…since this has become a battle of the fittest.

Your work environment has become toxic; you feel that you have become stale and relying on the past work is not working for you any longer. In addition, you find that you are so distracted by the daily competition from career-hungry coworkers that want to climb the ladder and are willing to destroy you to get ahead.

The sheer energy required daily to get up and engage with your family and coworkers has created tremendous discouragement, and the black clouds of depression have moved into your life. You don’t like the person that you have become; you have developed a hair-trigger that at any minute can result in escalation. Fear and feelings and emotions of hate and anger, even leaving you contemplating suicide.

You don’t have the answers for the problems you face on so many levels, it has made you feel in component, and you feel like an imposter since fearing the inevitable has diminished your confidence. You are concerned about losing your reputation and being let go from your employment.

You cannot imagine living like this for the next 20 or 30 years. The bombardment on your mind has caused you to withdraw and shut down emotionally. You have become a vapor of your old confident self, the trauma of being exposed to this ambition-driven lifestyle has created a monster in you, and you know that if you fail, it will mean death to your career and possibly your life. Failure carries in its bowel shame, and you have determined that you will not be able to face your family if that happens.

You are battling to focus and come up with any great ideas to impress your colleagues and bosses, so you begin to doubt your abilities and become concerned about your future with the company. Will you survive, or will they call you in and say goodbye.

You are lost as to what to do, but you know you need to do something, but the fear of being sabotaged just holds you back from asking for help, hoping that it will go away if you ignore it. Maybe just a quick drink and a pain pill will help. But the clock is ticking, and you are running out of time. So what is the plan, how should you change the way you feel and make the whole challenge begin to feel better.